I don't presume to know how your bad days begin, but I can usually feel a bad energy as it sweeps over me. This feeling of unease makes it difficult to get a decent night's sleep or clear your mind. Sometimes I wake up with it, other times it creeps up on me throughout the day, and on rare occasions it hits me like a bus! The only way I can describe the dreadful juu is like a needy friend who brings you down that you just can't seem to get rid of.
Sometimes, when you have one bad day, you also reflect on or channel energy from a previous bad day, making it worse. I don't have to apologize; she already knows, but I was in a horrible mood when I saw my best friend during her one visit home. I still feel a little down about it; I wish we had a good day. We only got to visit for a couple of hours out of the whole year, but I just couldn't fake a smile with her. For a whole year, I'd been wanting to beam at her, give her the biggest hug in the whole wide world, and tell her how great it was to finally see her, but I couldn't. That day I had had enough of smiling. I had had enough talking about how great life is. I had had enough of being Ms. Positivity. I just wanted to confide in my best friend about how crummy I was feeling and about how I'm tired of being surrounded by death and relocating and getting sick and injured. 2014 was the year from hell; God and I were NOT getting along despite my "silver lining" talk and Zen attitude about life. I "knew" I was going to see her again, so it was okay to have a bad day.
But really, it wasn't. I probably brought her down a bit, and I haven't seen her again since. I could've chosen to see the silver linings and be happy, but that wasn't who I was in that moment. I'm sorry. So, on this bad day, I'm going to learn from my mistakes. I'm locking myself away in my apartment and getting my Zen on bright and early tomorrow morning before I spread my negativity. Nobody likes a Debbie Downer, but we're all human. Negativity infects us sometimes. I'm eradicating it. Now.
Sometimes you can't stop it, but if you feel like you're having a bad day, find a way to stop it in its tracks! Exercise, meditate, walk in the woods, go for a long drive, practice some martial arts - whatever helps you to realign with your highest self. The world doesn't need any more anger and unrest.
Message of the Day: Don't be a Debbie Downer.
...Or do. It won't change my reality. Cheers!
Message of the Day: Don't be a Debbie Downer.
...Or do. It won't change my reality. Cheers!
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